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1 " Haven’t we known for a long time that it’s a mistake to attach meaning to each and every action of a person? Forced explanations often end in a distortion of lies. "
― Osamu Dazai , Pandora's Box
2 " By living this way, what will my fortune be? There is nothing. Am I simply a sickly man? What should I do? I had no direction, nothing. I thought that this reckless life of mine was only a nuisance to others and devoid of meaning. This was quite hard to bear. "
3 " I have no choice. I am a person with no reason to live. I know my lot. Yes, it would be great to die one day sooner. "
4 " Despair is impossible in humans. They often are deceived by hope, but are also deceived by the notion of despair. "
5 " Each day I deceived myself, unlike you who could never deceive yourself. Anxiety was trapped in the depths of my heart, like a formation of black clouds I could not break free of. "
6 " The smile of one flower permeates those who live next to death more than the problem of life and death. "
7 " no thought in the world is worse than the realization that, “My life is a nuisance to others. I am useless. "
8 " Around that time, I lost interest in college. I could only see blackness before me, I didn’t know what to do. It was no easy matter to prevent my father from criticizing my loafing around the house and my mother from seeing me as unworthy. "
9 " Of course, I intended to die without telling a soul about my illness. Without anyone knowing, I would secretly deteriorate. Actually, I felt that there was nothing else I could do. I had no alternatives. Shouldn’t I be resolved to die as a peasant in my horribly confused final circumstance? I had no excuses. It was not because life suddenly became precious, but the forced pretense until yesterday had disappeared. "
10 " We continued to walk without talking. I thought that from now on I will carefully look at the faces of women I encounter, and to some degree, the innocent, transparent beauty of Mabo will appear in all of their faces. Women have become womanly. But the change is not in the women before the world war. The new womanliness has experienced the suffering of war "
11 " Forced explanations often end in a distortion of lies. "
12 " You see, Take-san loves you, Skylark. That’s why she cried,” she said and squeezed even harder. "
13 " I entered this Health Dojo because the war ended and life suddenly became precious. "
14 " Around that time, I lost interest in college. I could only see blackness "
15 " I slept quietly so that I would breathe without coughing, and felt a curious indifference. I even felt like I had been waiting for that night for a long time. The words “heart’s desire” came to mind. "
16 " Now, I will make better use of my body and be useful by increasing food production just a little, then I will bid farewell to this world. It would be good to lighten the burden on this country. That is my path to best serve my country as a useless invalid. I want to die soon. "
17 " He’s probably quite good at mathematical calculations, but he doesn’t seem to have ever handled accounts of money. Because we have always been poor, "
18 " People depend on death to be complete. While alive, they are all incomplete. "
19 " We all live a sheet of paper away from death, so we shouldn’t be surprised by death. "
20 " The source of our laughter is the small stone that tumbled into a corner of Pandora’s box. "
