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" and there were times when i felt lost,but that did not stop me,for the further i went ,the more i collected myselfas i walked awayand the more i walked awaythe closer i got it to all,,,and in the end, i became the journey,and like all journeys,i did not end, i justchanged my directions. "
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" I wanted to write you a love poemBut my heart feels out of tuneSo I coax my breath into the darkness of my rib cage And invite it to fan openMaybe I would say something like," One day, I would like to fall in love with you," And here I pause while the tears that have been threatening to rain down all day swell high in my chest, blurring my vision" One day, I would like to fall in love with you," I will start writing again, & continue," wherever you are, whoever you are, but in this moment, I will fall in love with me." My brow furls ever so slightly, because that is not what I expected to sayI pause again & allow the container to soften, for the edges to get blurryAnd the tears, one by one spill overAnd all the holding of the day crumples awayAnd I am me again & you are you again,too "
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" ... and it was quite a sad thing,
the way I watched you sleep like nothing could go wrong and I did not want to harm it, I did not want to blur it, but how could I not
when everything I’ve ever known has slowly gone away
and I know by now that that’s the way you let the new day in
with new roads and views and chances to grow
but it was quite a sad thing
because I don’t want this to ever become ’then’ or ’was’
and it was quite an unfamiliar thing. The way I took off my shoes again, put down my bag and quietly went back to bed, slowly between the sheets of moments I don’t want to leave
and it was quite a beautiful thing the way you had no idea but still must have known because you did not even open your eyes, but turned around and took my hand and you were still asleep, breathing in and out like nothing could go wrong, but still held my hand like you were glad I didn’t leave. ’Thank you for staying’
and it was quite a wonderful thing, the way I smiled and so did you, sound asleep, and that’s all I need to know for now.
That’s all I want to know for now. "
― Charlotte Eriksson