" I wanted to get in the car and drive, just drive. Just get to you. That’s all I could think of, was getting to you. But I knew I had to sober up first. So I went out, to the beach. I thought if I walked awhile that might help. And it was cold, you know? The water was cold. I thought if I splashed some on my face…well, if I took a swim. That would help. I thought I’d only jump in, get wet. I thought it would only take a few minutes and I could be on my way. To you.” His voice snagged like a burr on silk. Heat leaked from the corners of Bess’s eyes and slipped between her lips. Salt water. Always salt water. I was stupid,” Nick whispered. You didn’t know,” she whispered back. It took my feet out from under me. And all I could think of was how you were waiting, and I was going to fuck it all up again. How I was going to let you down. "