" I had no future, not because it existed somewhere else but because I couldn't imagine it. That I might control my future and try to make it turn out the way I wanted was completely beyond my horizon. Everything was of the moment, I took everything as it came and acted on the basis of premises I didn't even know myself, without realising that this is what I did. "
― Karl Ove Knausgård , Min kamp 5 (Min kamp #5)