" I know, I know, everyone wants peace, why should I want a war? I'm fed up, bored to death. Besides, my life is worth nothing. If worthwhile types like scientists and engineers die, they're a big loss to the country; my death would be a good thing. As it is, I have not done anything worth a dog's fart.

I often think I am a fly in a glass bottle, with light, but without any future, and I can't take out the cork to let myself out. Dammit, I often doubt, with the bad habits I have picked up these past few years, wether I could do an honest job of work in the factory. Its a good thing there aren't many people like me, or the country'd be in a bad way "

― Zhang Xinxin , Chinese Profiles