" I told myself it was all right, I wasn’t disappointed, it was better this way. I wondered in a detached way whether it was all part of some cosmic punishment for Crazy Jake, the blood brother I had killed in Vietnam. Or perhaps for the other things I’ve done. To be periodically tantalized by the hope of something real, something good, always knowing at the same time it was all going to turn to dust. "
― Barry Eisler , Winner Take All (John Rain, #3)