" A few weeks ago, my manager asked: " Do you feel like you're back? I feel like you're back." She meant it as a total compliment, but we had this great conversation where I was like, " You know what? I try really hard not to use that language, because it's not about going backward in life." I think it comes from this culture of antiaging, which is so not loving ourselves. I've been really focused on not being " back" to anything, but being the best version of myself right now. My body is the site of a miracle now. I don't want to be pre-miracle. "