QUOTE : I always thought we’d die together. My friends hated it when I said that. But they had husbands and children and grandchildren, and all I had was Bao. And now he is gone. I can’t imagine a life without him. I don’t want to imagine it. I think about how easy it would be to put an end to it, here on this deserted, winding mountain road. A sudden twist of the steering wheel, that’s all it needs. I have no unfinished business. My affairs are in order. Nobody will miss me. There’s nobody left to miss me. Yet here’s Bao, curled up in his usual place on the passenger seat. It doesn’t make sense, that he can be dead and also be here. I want to die, I want this awful pain to stop. But I can’t, not with Bao sitting here beside me.