QUOTE : I had to believe that there was a greater purpose for the choices I had made: whether it was to help advance my career or whether it was truly for love. And depending on the month, the week, and sometimes even the hour of the day, I would waffle back and forth between precisely why I was living a life as nothing more than 'Girlfriend Number One' to a man who was old enough to be my grandfather. I didn't want to admit that I had sold a bit of my soul for the chance at fame.