" This girl did something to me that made me feel things I wished I didn’t.
Guilt, shame, the desperate fucking need to be with her all the time.
But I realized there was good stuff too. She made me feel like a little kid on Christmas morning every time I knew I was going to see her. She filled me with anticipation and something else entirely – a desire to be something better.
And that made me both want to run as fast as I could in the other direction and to hold on to her with everything I had. "

― A. Meredith Walters , Lead Me Not (Twisted Love, #1)