" My real trouble as a writer isn’t trying to mean the words that I write; it’s living into the words that I mean. Nonfiction writing can feel like the high art of hypocrisy, and the act of fixing words to a page can be like an inglorious act of self-crucifixion, ink indelibly driving the nails in the space that lies between life as I live it and life as I wish it were lived. "

― Jen Pollock Michel , Teach Us to Want: Longing, Ambition & the Life of Faith