" You are a speck. This whole life that seems so huge to us? asall of human enterprise even? Fuck us. We are so tiny," as he said " so tiny" he bent over until his forehead was nearly touching the tabletop, as if he was homing in on the speck that was them. " I can't stand to think we only add up to a blip. I need to think we're more than that." " Deal with it." he looked around as if someone had called his name. "