" I have spent your life trying to make you regret that you weren't dead, all because - I regretted that I wasn't! I ate you alive, and you have the temerity to tell me that you're sorry?"
There were flecks of spittle on Harrowhark's lips. She was retching for air.
'I have tried to dismantle you, Gideon Nav. The Ninth House poisoned you, we trod you underfoot - I took you to this killing field as my slave - you refuse to die, and you pity me! Strike me down. You won. I've lived my whole wretched life at your mercy, yours alone, and God knows I deserve to die at your hand. You are my only friend. I am undone without you. "

― Tamsyn Muir , Gideon the Ninth (The Locked Tomb, #1)