" I think I don't want to seem ordinary in Miles's eyes; I would rather not have a child than appear that way. Or maybe I can't say it because I don't want to lose face, not after saying so often that it's what I don't want. Do I want to be seen as having changed my mind, or for him to think I'm ridiculous, which he certainly would if I suddenly brought it up? Maybe I would rather leave him than say it. "

― Sheila Heti , Motherhood