" I want to slap him.Curse him.Scream at him.Slap him some more.I want to reach a hand into his chest and squeeze that life-sustaining organ until he collapses from the lack of blood flow and the agonizing pain pummeling his heart until it’s scarcely beating. I want him to hurt so badly that he can barely breathe while strips tear from his heart.I want him to feel everything I’m feeling.To hurt as much as I do.I want all that.But I can’t convince myself it’s the truth.Because I love him too much. "