QUOTE : I also had nightmares, somehow all the feelings I didnt feel when each thing had actually happened to me I did feel when I slept. I hated going to sleep because then I had to feel. I felt him hit me, and<br />I felt what it felt like, and christ it felt awful. I would sleep, some times with my eyes open, and I would feel it all over, and most of it for the first time. I didnt understand how I had not felt it when it was happening, but I hadnt, I had felt something else. I had felt almost nothing, which was something else, when I was sleeping each thing would happen to me as it had happened and I would feel what I had not felt.