" Would you want to be healed, if we could figure out how?” Tess asked quietly. Josquin looked up at her, a look with uncountable facets; she waited for the words. “I don’t know,” he said at last. “I feel like I should, and maybe someday I will, but…I don’t know how to make you understand. On a bad day—and there have been plenty of those—I might’ve said yes, please, wave your wand and make it go away. Now, though? I hate how ungrateful I sound, but I find the idea insulting, as if you were saying, ‘All your pain was a mistake. Here, have everything back.’ Except it wouldn’t be everything, not the time, not the suffering, not the thousand ways I’ve changed.” He shifted in the water. “I wouldn’t wish for this, Tess, but I’m not sure I’d wish it away, either. Does that make any sense at all? "
― Rachel Hartman , Tess of the Road (Tess of the Road, #1)