" She tried not to think of the men she’d killed. Their faces came anyway, haunting in her memory.
“How many?” she said, her voice trailing off. Corayne didn’t expect Andry to understand the broken musings of her mind.
But pain crossed his face, a pain she knew. He looked beyond her, to the bodies in green and gold. He shut his eyes and bowed his head, hiding his face from the desert sun.
“I don’t know,” he replied. “I will not count.”
I have never seen a heart break before, Corayne thought, watching Andry Trelland. He wore no wounds, but she knew he bled within. Once he was a squire of Galland who dreamed of becoming a knight. And now he is a killer of them, a killer of his own dreams. "

― Victoria Aveyard , Blade Breaker (Realm Breaker, #2)