" He looked up at her. “I can’t tell you why. She may be a fiend from hell to make me feel this way, but even if I have to hate myself for the rest of my life, this is what I want.” He shook his head, perhaps in self-contempt, and shrugged. “I dream about her at night.”
Eddis looked down at him and said dryly, “We have heard you screaming. "

― Megan Whalen Turner , The Queen of Attolia (The Queen's Thief, #2)