" To care not for one’s self is of little moment, but to care not for those whom one has loved is another matter. All has become an object of an indifferent curiosity, and nothing is of consequence. Perhaps I write these words and employ the devices that I have learned so that I may discover whether I might rouse myself from this great indifference into which I have descended. I doubt that I shall be able to do so, anymore than I should be able to push these massive rocks down the slope into the dark concern of the sea. I am indifferent even to my doubt. "

― John Williams , Augustus