" To remember rape is to fold details into sensation, and so relive each time its terrible truth.

He told you this could become habit, an addiction, until even despair became a welcome taste on your tongue.

Understand, then - as only you can here - that to take one's own life is the final expression of despair.

You saw that. Buruk the Pale. You felt that, at the sea's edge. "

― Steven Erikson , Reaper's Gale (Malazan Book of the Fallen, #7)