" You want to be a good person, don't you, Pat?'
I nod. I cry. I do want to be a good person, I really do.
'I'm going to up your meds,' Dr. Patel tells me. 'You might feel a little sluggish, but it should help to curb your violent outbursts. You need to know it's your actions that will make you a good person, not desire. "

― Matthew Quick , The Silver Linings Playbook