" I already live like you," Evan lifted his head and looked straight into Christian's eyes. " I'm living like you right now, without her. If she leaves me when I ask her to marry me, or at the altar, or tomorrow, I could still say I tried. I could still say I loved her, that I kissed her, I held her." Evan inhaled a deep breath, his chest swelling with the intensity of it. " Without her, I'll just rot into nothing. "