" I don’t think anyone would expect you to,” I said softly. “Not—” “Not yet? Which implies that at some point I won’t feel like this. But the thing people don’t seem to realize is that I don’t want to not feel like this. How can I not feel like this? My sadness feels right. It . . . weighs the right amount, crushes me just enough. My anger is clean, it bolsters me. "

― Paula Hawkins , Into the Water