QUOTE : For the apostles, it was Jesus’ crucifixion. The life that they had known with him was taken away. They felt numb, betrayed; it was as if the God they had invested everything in had vanished. They could no longer believe as they had before. Jones says that it’s as if their egoism were being burned out. Now the disciples have to go deeper and find a faith that allows them to live not only with the presence of Christ but with his seeming absence. They have to enter the darkness of their own doubts and come through to a faith that is true to where they are now.