" He thought himself a shining light, and the more he felt this the more he was conscious of a wakening, a dying down of the divine light of truth that shone within him.

'In how far is what I do for God and in how far it is for men?' That was the question that insistently tormented him and to which he was not so much unable to give himself an answer unable to face the answer.

In the depth of his soul he felt that the devil had substituted an activity for men in place of his former activity for God. "

― Leo Tolstoy , Father Sergius