" The only thing I can do now is preserve my logical understanding to the end. I always wanted to grab at life, and not with the best of intentions either. That was not right; and am I to show now that not even these proceedings lasting a whole year could teach me anything? Am I to depart as an utterly stupid man? Are they going to say when I have gone that I wanted to end the case at the beginning and that now, at the end, I want it to begin again? I don't want people to say that. I'm thankful they've given me these stupid inarticulate companions for this journey and that they've left it to me to say what has to be said to myself. "

― Franz Kafka , The Trial