" felt sure that the creature was what we call “good,” but I wasn’t sure whether I liked “goodness” so much as I had supposed. This is a very terrible experience. As long as what you are afraid of is something evil, you may still hope that the good may come to your rescue. But suppose you struggle through to the good and find that is also dreadful? "

― C.S. Lewis , Space Trilogy: Out of the Silent Planet / Perelandra / That Hideous Strength