weep over it, we grieve over it; we torment and punish
ourselves more perhaps than that merciful Judge Who will
judge us and whose Name we know not. But we have
science, and by the means of it we shall find the truth and we
shall arrive at it consciously. Knowledge is higher than
feeling, the consciousness of life is higher than life. Science
will give us wisdom, wisdom will reveal the laws, and the
knowledge of the laws of happiness is higher than
happiness."/>

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" Yes, yes, it ended in my corrupting them all! How it could
come to pass I do not know, but I remember it clearly. The
dream embraced thousands of years and left in me only a
sense of the whole. I only know that I was the cause of their
sin and downfall. Like a vile trichina, like a germ of the
plague infecting whole kingdoms, so I contaminated all this
earth, so happy and sinless before my coming. They learnt
to lie, grew fond of lying, and discovered the charm of
falsehood. Oh, at first perhaps it began innocently, with a
jest, coquetry, with amorous play, perhaps indeed with a
germ, but that germ of falsity made its way into their hearts
and pleased them. Then sensuality was soon begotten,
sensuality begot jealousy, jealousy - cruelty . . . Oh, I don't
know, I don't remember; but soon, very soon the first blood
was shed. They marvelled and were horrified, and began to
be split up and divided. They formed into unions, but it was
against one another. Reproaches, upbraidings followed.
They came to know shame, and shame brought them to
virtue. The conception of honour sprang up, and every union
began waving its flags. They began torturing animals, and
the animals withdrew from them into the forests and became
hostile to them. They began to struggle for separation, for
isolation, for individuality, for mine and thine. They began
to talk in different languages. They became acquainted with
sorrow and loved sorrow; they thirsted for suffering, and said
that truth could only be attained through suffering. Then
science appeared. As they became wicked they began talking
of brotherhood and humanitarianism, and understood those
ideas. As they became criminal, they invented justice and
drew up whole legal codes in order to observe it, and to
ensure their being kept, set up a guillotine. They hardly
remembered what they had lost, in fact refused to believe that
they had ever been happy and innocent. They even laughed
at the possibility o this happiness in the past, and called it a
dream. They could not even imagine it in definite form and
shape, but, strange and wonderful to relate, though they lost
all faith in their past happiness and called it a legend, they so
longed to be happy and innocent once more that they
succumbed to this desire like children, made an idol of it, set
up temples and worshipped their own idea, their own desire;
though at the same time they fully believed that it was
unattainable and could not be realised, yet they bowed down
to it and adored it with tears! Nevertheless, if it could have
happened that they had returned to the innocent and happy
condition which they had lost, and if someone had shown it
to them again and had asked them whether they wanted to go
back to it, they would certainly have refused. They answered
me:
"We may be deceitful, wicked and unjust, we know it and
weep over it, we grieve over it; we torment and punish
ourselves more perhaps than that merciful Judge Who will
judge us and whose Name we know not. But we have
science, and by the means of it we shall find the truth and we
shall arrive at it consciously. Knowledge is higher than
feeling, the consciousness of life is higher than life. Science
will give us wisdom, wisdom will reveal the laws, and the
knowledge of the laws of happiness is higher than
happiness. "

Fyodor Dostoevsky , The Dream of a Ridiculous Man, and the Little Orphan


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Fyodor Dostoevsky quote : Yes, yes, it ended in my corrupting them all! How it could<br />come to pass I do not know, but I remember it clearly. The<br />dream embraced thousands of years and left in me only a<br />sense of the whole. I only know that I was the cause of their<br />sin and downfall. Like a vile trichina, like a germ of the<br />plague infecting whole kingdoms, so I contaminated all this<br />earth, so happy and sinless before my coming. They learnt<br />to lie, grew fond of lying, and discovered the charm of<br />falsehood. Oh, at first perhaps it began innocently, with a<br />jest, coquetry, with amorous play, perhaps indeed with a<br />germ, but that germ of falsity made its way into their hearts<br />and pleased them. Then sensuality was soon begotten,<br />sensuality begot jealousy, jealousy - cruelty . . . Oh, I don't<br />know, I don't remember; but soon, very soon the first blood<br />was shed. They marvelled and were horrified, and began to<br />be split up and divided. They formed into unions, but it was<br />against one another. Reproaches, upbraidings followed. <br />They came to know shame, and shame brought them to<br />virtue. The conception of honour sprang up, and every union<br />began waving its flags. They began torturing animals, and<br />the animals withdrew from them into the forests and became<br />hostile to them. They began to struggle for separation, for<br />isolation, for individuality, for mine and thine. They began<br />to talk in different languages. They became acquainted with<br />sorrow and loved sorrow; they thirsted for suffering, and said<br />that truth could only be attained through suffering. Then<br />science appeared. As they became wicked they began talking<br />of brotherhood and humanitarianism, and understood those<br />ideas. As they became criminal, they invented justice and<br />drew up whole legal codes in order to observe it, and to<br />ensure their being kept, set up a guillotine. They hardly<br />remembered what they had lost, in fact refused to believe that<br />they had ever been happy and innocent. They even laughed<br />at the possibility o this happiness in the past, and called it a<br />dream. They could not even imagine it in definite form and<br />shape, but, strange and wonderful to relate, though they lost<br />all faith in their past happiness and called it a legend, they so<br />longed to be happy and innocent once more that they<br />succumbed to this desire like children, made an idol of it, set<br />up temples and worshipped their own idea, their own desire;<br />though at the same time they fully believed that it was<br />unattainable and could not be realised, yet they bowed down<br />to it and adored it with tears! Nevertheless, if it could have<br />happened that they had returned to the innocent and happy<br />condition which they had lost, and if someone had shown it<br />to them again and had asked them whether they wanted to go<br />back to it, they would certainly have refused. They answered<br />me:<br /> weep over it, we grieve over it; we torment and punish
ourselves more perhaps than that merciful Judge Who will
judge us and whose Name we know not. But we have
science, and by the means of it we shall find the truth and we
shall arrive at it consciously. Knowledge is higher than
feeling, the consciousness of life is higher than life. Science
will give us wisdom, wisdom will reveal the laws, and the
knowledge of the laws of happiness is higher than
happiness." style="width:100%;margin:20px 0;"/>