QUOTE : As much as I acted like I didn’t care about relationships: having sex just for the fun of it. I was still a girl inside and I still had feelings.<br /><br />I hated myself for the way I treated people. I hated the person I had become. The guilt for treating guys badly and acting destructively took a toll on me mentally. At all times I was moments away from a breakdown, but I didn’t see a way out. <br /><br />I didn’t see an end to the madness. I was spiraling out of control, but there didn’t seem to be a bottom for me to hit.