" Cast further adrift by this subtle urgency,
I can feel my precious life ebbing away.
Better to be a recluse than a loose wreck,
a small fish in a pond instead of lost at sea.
Erudition without motivation cuts no ice around here;
the extent of my ambition is shabby gentility.
The Hate Poems
John Tottenham "
― John Tottenham , The Hate Poems