" ~Can You?~

In the depths of despair, I cry out.
Do You see me here?
In the puddles of tears, I die inside.
Do You know I’m still alive?
In the chair or prosecution, I am beaten.
Do You see the blood on my hands?
In the shadowlands of fear, I am lifeless.
Do You still have faith in me?
In the end of time, I fall on my face.
Do You see me weeping?
In the hurting eyes of others, I am heartless.
Can You heal me?
In the face of evil, I laugh.
Can You protect me?
In the church, I feel Your Presence,
I’ve forgotten how to respond.
Can You teach me?
In the fields of battle, I long for a shot,
To wake me up.
Can I start again?
When I look in the mirror, I see eyes,
Bolted up and locked with pride.
Can You soften my heart?
Can You give me hope?
Can You help me believe in myself?
Can You? "

― Rachel Nicole Wagner , Yesterday's Coffee