QUOTE : July 1st<br />It’s as though everything stood still. There is no movement, no stirring, complete emptiness of all thought, of all seeing. There is no interpreter to translate, to observe, to censor. An immeasurable vastness that is utterly still and silent. There is no space, nor time to cover that space. The beginning and the ending are here, of all things. There is really nothing that can be said about it.<br />The pressure and the strain have been going on quietly all day; only now they have increased.<br /><br />2nd<br />The thing which happened yesterday, that immeasurable still vastness, went on all the evening, even though there were people and general talk. It went on all night; it was there in the morning. Though there was rather exaggerated, emotionally agitated talk, suddenly in the middle of it, it was there. And it is here, there’s a beauty and a glory and there’s a sense of wordless ecstasy.<br />The pressure and the strain began rather early.<br /><br />3rd<br />Been out all day. All the same, in a crowded town in the afternoon, for two or three hours the pressure and the strain of it was on.<br /><br />4th<br />Been busy, but in spite of it, the pressure and the strain of it was there in the afternoon.<br />Whatever actions one has to do in daily life, the shocks and the various incidents should not leave their scars. These scars become the ego, the self, and as one lives, it becomes strong and its walls almost become impenetrable.<br /><br />5th<br />Been too busy but whenever there is some quiet, the pressure and the strain was on.<br /><br />6th<br />Last night woke up with that sense of complete stillness and silence; the brain was fully alert and intensely alive; the body was very quiet. This state lasted for about half an hour. This in spite of an exhausting day.<br />The height of intensity and sensitivity is the experiencing of essence. It’s this that is beauty beyond word and feeling. Proportion and depth, light and shade are limited to time-space, caught in beauty-ugliness. But that which is beyond line and shape, beyond learning and knowledge, is the beauty of essence.<br /><br />7th<br />Woke up several times shouting. Again there was that intense stillness of the brain and a feeling of vastness. There has been pressure and strain.<br />Success is brutality. Success in every form, political and religious, art and business. To be successful implies ruthlessness.