" Better I die for something, even if it’s nothing you’d believe in. Loyalty’s just a word to you. It’s real for me.

I’d like to say I love you, but I promised truth. I’ve feared you, admired you, hated you, maybe even worshipped you. But I know what love feels like now, and we never had that.

Tell Ma that if I love anyone, it’s her. She’s always been quiet and distant, but I think that’s because she hates you and I’m collateral damage. I wish I’d known her without you. I think we’d understand each other better.
Good-bye, Da.
Go to hell.
I hope I’m not there waiting. "

― Rachel Caine , Sword and Pen (The Great Library, #5)