QUOTE : I remember thinking, So this is it then. This is what it's come to for them, the poor bastards. This doing of life. This simple, just living in the world. The laying of plans that hadn't already been laid. The long preparation, ending. And for what? Here's what it amounted to: furniture and teaching. And on the one hand, it seemed like the bravest thing to me: to just go out and do that thing. And on the other, the most depressing: to just go out and do that thing. The thing that you've chosen to do, and by so choosing, shutting out all the other things. It took an awful lot of certainty to make that sort of choice. The choice to spend the time you have doing the thing you want to do.